HOLIDAY HW Here comes the almighty JUNE HOLIDAYS which we students love the most.



But here comes the hurting truth of exams after holidays immediately is just HORRENDOUS.



AND the piling hw seems so intimidating, and I don't know how to start it, as there's so much to tackle.



BUT, I GONNA do it one by one, and I believe I can do it=)



JUNE HOLIDAY HW:



- group mindmaps

-3 detailed essay outlines

-promo 2006 compre

-JC1 common test 2008 compre

-read directed reading packages

-15 ARTICLE REVIEWS

-MI tutorial

-curve sktching lecture+tutorial

-systems of linear equations lecture+tutorial

-JC1 mid yr practice paper math

-gravitational field lecture+tutorial

-waves lecture+tutorial

-phy TYS questions

-solid state lecture+tutorial

-chemical energetics lecture+tutorial

-chem revision package MCQ questions

-econs lecture notes read to understand what teacher is talking



Well, actually there is not as much homework as given, its just that I was already in holiday mood around one week ago, and thus this explains the extra hw I have to finish before term 3 starts.



Enjoy as you mug=)  ¶ 12:45 PM 0 Comments

  Pick yourself up Lets start it all over again, from where I fell and I'll pick myself up again.

Yes, May is one of my the most horrible month of my life when I met so many challenges that really topple me over.

I found myself peaking to my toppest form, and then in one day, I lost everything.

On that night, I practised for my speech and yes, is the first time I am so confident of my oral skills.

On that night, I received the shocking news, that began my days of trauma.

On that night, I started to cry, and the tears did not stop for a week, and that begins my splitting headache.

On that day, I know that I lost the opportunity to run for p/vp position though I was shortlisted from interview as I did not turn up for speech.

Yes, I feel a tinge of sadness as I am confident of myself.
I know I can get it.

But you know we have to make choices and balance in life.

And I made the choice.
I MADE THE CHOICE, and whatever it is, I'LL NEVER REGRET IT.

A choice for someone who you respect and love.


And yes, here comes JUNE, a brand new month.

REGINA, you gonna pick urself up=)

Get out of all the mess you have made urself into in the past few weeks.

For only you yourself can do it.


"Whatever it is, we'll always stand beside you, supporting you even if you crash."

This is sth which I want to tell someone but I know the sentence will never come out from my mouth.  ¶ 11:41 AM 0 Comments

  残爱

星光遗失的夜晚眼泪狂妄的打转
被谁宠坏的小孩忘了自己不应该
描绘留下的残骸可笑的无法释怀
迷信爱情的悲哀别再将我拥入怀

你想的和我要的都已经不在
要我如何乖乖的看待
原来一切都可以被取代
不再任性依赖
你转身离开
残忍的对白
还要我微笑说声嗨
看不出来你永远都看不出来

我的无奈  ¶ 8:09 PM 0 Comments

  Oh AJ pe is still horrendous even after napha( I don't really know the correct spelling though. whatever it is, I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER IT)

PE is still filled with continuous jogs around the track and push-ups and i. pull ups and sit ups and all types of exercises that is believed to train every specific part of your body.

And yes, I believe this will not stop though.

Because of bad news: this year's cohort perform poorer because there are 50+ ppl who failed as compared to last year's cohort.

WTF.

Seriously I've never ever seen anyone playing ball games in this school ever since I first stepped foot.

The balls( bball...netbal...vball...) or seem so unfamiliar to me now.

Perhas I still need to pose this question:

IS A BALL ROUND?

ouch.

Please stop all the joggings and stupid exercises which you ppl think can benefit.

BECAUSE WE STUDENTS ARE ALREADY SO SICK OF YOUR MONOTONOUS ROUTINE OF PE, AND HENCE WE ARE ALREADY LEFT WITH NO MOTIVATION TO DO PE ANYMORE.

ISN'T GOV. PROMOTING CREATIVITY???

  ¶ 9:35 PM 0 Comments

  A SQUARE ended last night=(

Its really saddening, as Candice and me love our juniors a lot=)
And yes, although they are all guys.
And yes, although they say really pervert jokes in front of us.
And yes, although they slack and don't listen to us sometimes!

But really, they are really nice people, as perhaps, we are still afterall BPIANS=)

"ONCE A BPIAN, ALWAYS A BPIAN."

Thats the first line Mr Lee Seng Hai said during the short speech for the ceremony.

We received our certificates of appreciation and invitation for the holiday movie and one of the best gifts I've ever received.=)


And afterall, BP is the only school that let me pull down my defence and really mix with people genuinely=)


I love BP.


And to my A Square juniors( if you ever come here): Work hard hard hard FOR O'S!

  ¶ 6:10 PM 0 Comments

  I need a new blogskin.
I need a new look.
I need a changeover.

Friday's harmoc practice started yesterday and Nadia and me stoned during the 1.15-4pm break before harmoc.

A Square is as fun as expected=)
The juniors brighten me my mood up as after the break, they were rather reluctant to do the work, and we just chit-chat.=)

And yes, I am still at my emo-emo mode.

But I want to thank my dear friends who attempted to cheer me up.

Thanks to WeiLing and Candice for the chocolates and the cards.=)
Thanks to Elaine and Xin Fang who came to bp ytd specially to look for me.=)

I'll try to plough through the sadness, and try not to brood over the spade of events that happened on me recently.=)  ¶ 7:53 PM 0 Comments

  We care only when we know that the consequences/outcome are disastrous.

only when the pain is inflicted.






















Like a stretched rubber band, threatening to break.  ¶ 9:25 PM 0 Comments

  I feel really unwell now and my stomach is aching to the extent that I feeel that the world is turning rounds and rounds.

I promised myself that I must finish MATH INDUCTION, chem lecture notes which I missed last wk, and prastise harmoc for tml's audition.

But it even seems a slim chance that I will be going school tml.

Because my stomach has been aching and churning for 2 hours.

2 HOURS.

I think I am going to faint soon.

But I must go school tml, even if I have MC.


The cynical nature of human life.
so disappointed.
The fact that I am anguished with pain doesn't affect.
Lectures and tutorials just keep going on and on.
Even if I'm sad, unwell or feel like giving up,
no one will stop their steps for me.
Mother Earth will keep on spinning.
The sun will rise and set everyday.
The clouds will keep on moving.
The others will keep on with their steps.

They will laugh, they will smile, they will keep on with their studies, they will interact with more people.

And you, Regina Lim, just stop at ur steps, grieving at your own sweet pace.

Now I've got to do it all on my own.

In the past, when I feel so lost, I know that there will always be someone behind me, supporting me up when I fall.

But not now.

not now anymore.

The blatant truth of life.

You fell terribly.

  ¶ 6:57 PM 0 Comments

  Thats lots for me to pour and drown my feelings here.



But I know I don't have the time when I've missed one-day school and have not done hw for wholly seven days and is seriously lagging.

And I'm seriously tired that I've slept only merely hours for these few days and cried continuously for almost every day.

And when people like you are celebrating Vesak Day, Mother's Day and School Holiday, I am over here crying everyday with my aunts, uncles and cousins.

Depressed mood escalated to its peak on Sunday during 出殡, when everyone broke down especially seeing grandma lost her sanity.

I just want to say, "Friends come and go."

Even true ones.

Only Family stays with u forever  ¶ 10:07 PM 0 Comments

  The pain of losing a loved one.

You'll never ever understand even if you say that you try to put yourself in my shoes.

I don't need sympathy.

I don't need you to give me that look,
as if you understand.

But you don't.

Coz you don't feel the pain.

You don't.

I admit that I am losing my sanity these few days.
Too many things coming together.
Too many.
Too many.

I am losing grip of myself.
I am losing control of my tears.

They just drop off so uncontrollably.

I find them streaming down
when I am on the mrt to school,
when I reach school and the first person asked me, " What happened to you?"
when the principal is talking during the assembly,
when I am on the mrt back home.

Yes. streaming down.
I tried my best to turn my face away from the commuters or just stop the tears.
But they just keep coming down.

And I find them trying to trickle down during lectures and tutorials, but I tried, I really tried, and I stopped them just in time.

Yesterday is really horrible.

Other than the morning events that took place as mentioned in the previous post, I found myself panicking after realising that my com crashed and I cannot open MICROSOFT and my PW documents, included my edited FINAL PI cannot be opened.

Yes, I was shocked.

AND PI must be handed in next day.

And I have no time to finish or print it as I have to go back to ah ma's hse at night.

Then with no choice as I still cannot recover MICROSOFT , I went to cousin's hse and tried to retype most of the info and finished the thing within around 1.5 hour which I would usually take around 4 hours perhaps.

Though it is not totally finished yet, we are already VERY late.

And yes, my cousin's printer is not working and I have to ask someone else to print for me.

Btw, frankly speaking although I lost the opportunity of delivering my exco speech on wed, and hence lost the opportunity to be in the exco, but I have no regrets.

If given the same predicament again, I will still give up the opportunity.

What I need is concern, not sympathy.

But its too late now.

And yes, I realise something, sometimes, thats no need to explain verbally.

Because this wastes your effort in dealing with cynical people.

Yes, CYNICAL people, or rather IGNORANT?

Hence I see no need in explaining to some people when they ask me," What happen to you yesterday?"

Because their tone is.......ludicrous.

That flippant attitude totally pisses me off and get a damnshit out of me.

You must be worse than a beast now to insult me.

Yes.

Insults will not be fuckingly entertained.

  ¶ 4:51 PM 0 Comments

  Attended grandfather's funeral in the morning.

When we reach grandfather's house,
the scene is really....

saddening.

气氛真的真的很凝重。

大家眼睛都是红的。

Then we went to grandfather's room, and we saw his body on the bed covered with his blanket.

弟弟哭了。

我强忍住眼泪。
忍。

However, during the funeral, which is really really saddening, almost all of us cried.

It is that....
heartbrokening.

Then when we went to the coffin,
we know that 阿公 走的安心。

因为他那慈祥，带着微笑的表情，是我永远永远不会忘记的。  ¶ 4:39 PM 0 Comments

  五月五日， 11.15pm

外公走了。
离开了我们。

二姨哽咽着打来。
母亲吓坏了，飞奔似地和父亲赶到外公家.

正在修改PI 的我，傻眼了。
接了电话，回到电脑荧幕面前，眼泪簌簌流下。
完全不知道自己在干什么，只不过就一直望着荧幕，回想着外公以前那慈祥的笑容，对我们种种的好，

想着，
哭着，
想着，
哭着。

就这样走了。
外公。

每年母亲节，大家都会聚在外公外婆家。
这星期天，怎么办？

怎么办？
怎么办？
怎么办？
怎么办？
怎么办？


外公，你会永远在我们心里.
我相信外婆会加油的。  ¶ 12:00 AM 0 Comments