Hi peepo, I am seriously tired and sick of acting at a pace that really don't suits me.

And yep.
I have been continuously working for more than 10days.

I took the bus with Shahid today although I thought of taking the MRT due to the irritating traffic jam at Orchard ytd which delayed me.

We had a heart-to-heart talk.(not really totally actually. I still had second thought of telling him too much)

But we do talked all the way from the start to the end of the journey.

Franking speaking, I was thinking ytd night that today would be my last day.
However, whenever NANA(my supervisor) asks me whether I wanna work the next day, I would agree immediately.

Why?
For the money of course.

not for the people there.(colleagues lah!)

Those colleagues that are really sincere to me have left ytd(last day work), and Elaine, Xin Fang and Wan Xuan are no longer present.

And hence, I turned moody today again.

Frankly speaking, most of the colleagues there are really FAKE and insincere and are just using each other.

I do know that most of the Royce staff( those who worked there for very long le) like Farhana, Dewi, Cempakah( I'm not afraid of listing names as they will never come by here!), dislike me.

And I do know that they had been bad-mouthing me behind my back(but oops! I did overhear their conversation on several occasions).

But hey!

I prefer to plough through all the unhappiness and humilation and continue until when I can stop.

And seriously, I just feel really humilated at times.

But so what?
I think my pride has been totally lost all this while doing this job already.

I missed the VERY-CROWDED- PEAK CHRISTMAS PERIOD when there's queues and hordes of people and my best friends and ,the new colleagues( different people!), and my sister's old classmates, and when THERE'S MANY THINGS TO DO.(although its been one day only)

I prefer to be loaded with many things.
I love to be busy.

keeps my mind off from silly things.

And I missed the gift-wrappers including Elaine, Xin Fang, Wan Xuan, and all the newbies who came one-day only.

We sneaked behind and stole choco samples tgt.
We talked.
We even talked before the customers while gift-wrapping.

SO WHAT'S LEFT OF ME NOW?

Everyone has left.
The customer volume dropped drastically from ytd to today.

No more queues.
Nothing much to do except to look in a daze( I cnt get along with the remaining colleagues. I'll rather save my pride that's left so little, than to turn pretentious and chat to them as if I do not know that they dislike me. Moreover, they speak Malay and I don't know any single word they are saying)
The customers are not really nice sometimes.
They are picky and fussy.
They just show you atttitude and think that you are SUPPOSED to serve them like KINGS AND QUEENS.

esp. those self-thought-high-class-people.
They think that they pay and should fel pampered.
But hello!
You pay for the products but not our services!
Moreover, what can you expect friom FREE GIFT-WRAPPING SERVICES?

I can still rmb a WOMAN who "gave a talk" to us on SERVICES.
What I was thinking is what the hell? WHo ARE YOU??? Some self-thought inspirational character?
The situation is like this:
She realises that she cannot differentiate the Nama choco which have been wrapped and thinks we are irresponsible(partly my fault as I nvr label),
She began to nag," What kind of service is this??? You should make service personalised......service...SERVICE.....SERVICE..."

Assy.

But some customers are real nice and brighten up my day today.
A handsome chap praised my wrapping today by saying,"its real nice".
another guy gave me a look which really tells me that he appreciates the wrapping a lot.( though I think he's 放电-ing lah)

I also cannot stand mothers/aunties/couples/teenagers calling me "AUNTIE" OR "MADAM".

Its in such a case, when a kid wanna take some christmas stickers from my counter, and the mother goes, " Hey! You can't take that!! Ask AUNTIE'S permission first!!!"

Excuse me? Your age can be my mum ok?

Anw, I am obviously pissed today again by another colleague which showed me her tough attitude, and indirectly saying that I am ill-mannered, by saying, " CAN'T YOU AT LEAST SAY EXCUSE ME"?

Then the taka auntie cashiers attitude-ed me also.

F***.

I am feeling damn pissed seriously.

Am I really too dumb and stupid, or just innocent and blur(euphemism huh)?

Anw, I have finally decided that I WILL GO TO THE CLASS CHALET IN JAN.
I believe that if the response to this chalet is bad, there will be no more GATHERINGS in the future!!!!

And I really don't wanna see that as I know that my classmates are better and far more sincere to me compared to my shitty fake colleagues.

Anw, I MISS SCHOOL LIFE.
I miss the teaching.
I miss homework.
I miss exams.
I miss classes.
I miss the nervous anticipation for the ringing of school bell for recess/end of school.
I miss school pals.
I miss CO.
I miss juniors.
I miss teachers.

There's lot for me to grudge and grumble about.

Working pace is really too fast and unsuitable for me who is too blur and forgetful and dumbass.

And I BELIEVE, WITH MY CONFIRMATION, ELAINE LIM AND CHUA XIN FANG WILL MAKE THEIR CONFIRMATION ALONG WITH ME just like when we were discussing this matter during work.AM I RIGHT?lolx!=X  ¶ 11:47 PM